Sunday, April 24, 2011
Dress - H&M, jewelery - antique and gift, shoes - DIY
I wasn't exactly intending to do an outfit post today, but considering I had plans for dinner and the weather was gorgeous, it just happened. I told myself I desperately needed spring break to recuperate, to let the idea of finishing high school sink in, and to choose where I want to go next year... but of course, none of that actually occurred. I'm exactly where I started. Go figure.
I've been tossing several options around, even ones that are completely far fetched and plain ludicrous. You know, like finding a job in NYC and living in a tiny apartment with a friend. Seems that I'll either be going to a certain nearby school (despite my wishes not to), or I may try to take a semester off and do something weird, or I may actually pursue colleges I ruled out. And here I go again with the great debate! It's seriously stressing me out and I have less than a week to decide.
I just don't know what I want to do with my life. I could just go somewhere undecided, do general studies my freshman year... but I don't think that would be remotely satisfying. I know I'd get stuck in this same rut, and the idea of creating anything would drift yet further away. And if I were to pursue art, there's the chance that I'll lose any remaining passion and then I'll have wasted a year. I hate wasting time...
I know, I'll look back and realize it's hardly a big deal, but for now, I'm completely consumed with such thoughts. So if you were curious about why I've slowed down with posting, here you go.